This morning I woke up with gratitude in my heart for the things I don't know yet. It's an amazing feeling to know there is so much to learn. I'm grateful for all of the experiences I have had which have lead me to the person I am today. I can't wait to see what the future will hold and what today is about to bring to me. 2020 challenged my optimistic nature quite a bit. With every turn of the corner I felt there was negative.
In January, I dedicated myself and my thoughts to once again finding the positive in each day. I have seen a dramatic difference in the way this is affecting my own personality, but also that of my children and husband. We all seem to have a more optimistic feeling for the unknown. We're looking forward to when things are a little more of what they used to be, but know that today is a great day to be alive. We have so much to be thankful for. We appreciate the area we live, lots of sunshine and fresh air, more togetherness, a roof over our heads, and food to eat every day.
We don't have a lot of extra, but do we really need it? With so much good in our lives, what more could we possibly need? Sure it would be nice to take a long trip somewhere, and I'm sure my kids would love to have the latest greatest video game. The things we miss the most are the people in our lives. I haven't seen my folks as much as I would like to, but we stay in touch through video calls. We miss hanging out with and having friends over, but we do talk to them through messengers and video calls as well. It's not the same, but it will do for now.
As a parent, who works full time from home, it took a bit to get used to the homeschooling situation. This definitely challenged me, but now I find joy in being able to explain and teach my kids techniques for getting past frustration. My son has a tendency to say negative things about himself, so we're working on that here at home. Reminding him everyday why he is awesome. My daughter is a little more confident, but also closed. We're working on opening up about feelings and thoughts.
This might seem strange to say but I am actually thankful for COVID. Not saying I would appreciate it lasting forever, but there are reasons to appreciate what it has brought. It required me to spend more time getting to know my children better. With not as many things to constantly be running to and from. Parties, picnics, school activities, sports, etc., not happening, we're spending more of that time together. Learning and growing together. Understanding each other.
